Tuesday, December 11, 2007

If only she knew

At first i thought u were there for me. i thought we were meant to be a bf forever... i felt strong around u. u make me realize how to live my life and how to respect for myself. u revived me making all my problems dissapear as though they never existed.

Then, you left
my world began to crumble and dissappear infront of me. my heart was broken into pieces and tears had fallen. everyday i would stand alone. you know, sometimes it hurts being on my own. before, u were always in my heart. now, we're ending apart. i thought that im strong.. but im wrong. im too weak without u. u r like a mother to me.. im ur daughter.. a mother can be independent without her daughter but a daughter cannot be independent without her mother. u support me in everything i do, u cried for me if i have problems, and we share our happiness together.

Now, its too late..
after all that happens, we can't even be like before. its really hurtful me. im not mad at u just bcoz of him.. but i felt dissapointed when u cheated me. i tried to protect our friendships but u destroyed it. and the reason u gave me is bcoz im too kind and u r bad??? omg. nobody perfect dear.. u know that I'll accept u the way u r. ur reason is not relevant.. u knoe, the fact is u left me bcoz u have someone else. how could u do that to me. i know that im the one who ended this friendships.. but u the one who make me do that. i thought we were the music and lyrics of a song so melodic.. but im wrong.

i wish u say 'Dhanie, plz dun leave me. im sorry, i still love our friendships.' but u never say it.
i wish dat u try to call me again. but u only call me twice. how can i anwer ur call when u hurt my heart. i need time.
i wish dat u wish my besday in that year.. i wait for u till the morning.. but ...
i wish u still love me.. but ...
i wish that we never meet, so that i dun felt hurtful like dis.
u knoe wut, i dun want to meet u not bcoz i dun want, but bcoz im afraid that i will cry again. why u started 2 do it if u know that i'll be hurt by u?
dear, till now, u r still the best bestfriends 2 me. no one can replace u.. wut past is past. its alr 3 years since dat day happen. i alr forgive u.. n plz forgive me too. i had changed a lot. its my fault to trust u more than 100%. its my fault to hold u too tight till its hard fer me to let it go. dear, u know who u r.

A song fer u :

Setiap kali aku menoleh ke belakangMencari-cari titik punca keretakanKu sedari tak wajar dipersalahkanDirimu yang kian ketandusan perasaanSesungguhnya yang tersilap diriku sendiriMenaruh harapan padamu terlalu tinggiSangkaku orang memberi kita berbahasaTak terlintas susu disaji dibalas tubaSetiap pengorbanan, setiap pemberianKu lakukan untukmu penuh ketulusanTiada yang diharap selain kejujuranBila diri dikhianati sungguh aku terkilanSememangnya bukan engkau bukan diaPenilaianku dulu dikelabui mataNamun ku temui hikmah di sebalik trajediTeman sejatiku hanyalah Dia yang abadi

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Bang bang boom

An unforgettable 20th birthday surprise
Mr. Aizam & Miss Adhani

Dis is wut we call 'Baju Bang-bang boom'

Dis is d Tok Dalang, Ejul ( Adam's PA)

Kami dengan Fairlady Adam

Kek birthday dari krew bang-bang boom

Bersama-sama krew Bang bang boom



Saje nk kongsi cerita dgn korang ttg malam yg i xkan lupekan.. ehheh.. camnie laa.. i citer dr mule laa. pada 1 petang/tghari tu ( xingt tarikh).. time2 br nk tido.. penat blik dr klas.. tetiba i trima 1 call ... org tu mperknalkan laa diri nye zul.. zul mane plak nie? adik i pn name zul.. mm..rupenye die nie pngurus Adam.. pastu die tnye i free x ari rabu nie? Ade dinner dgn Adam.. mule2 i kate bz.. pastu bile dgr die sbut adam.. trus i kate i free. sbnarnye rabu la plg bz.klas dr kol 8pg straight smpi kol 7mlm. ade exam lak tu ptang tu.. lps je ltak fon tu.. i pelik.. i rs nie msti ade la member2 laki yg sngaja nk kenekan i..so ade laa beberapa name yg bermain2 di fikiran i nie. petang tu i call la president afcm..tnye btol ke x tu zul.. sbb i xnak dikenekan member2.. hahaha.. president tu kate mmg btl.. bile i tnye nie under ape?afcm ke?KRU ke?Maestro ke? die kt xtau.. rmai ke org?sume die kt xtau.. lgla ku buntu..then.. hari2 berlalu tnpa khabar brita ape2 ttg dinner tu..so i pon xkesah la.sbb i rs mereka2 nie saje nk main2.. yelaa xkan la tetiba dpt dinner dgn fav artist kite kan?? Pd ari rabu petang tu(8/8/07).. time tgh tggu bus kt fac tu.. tetiba zul call.. btau tempat n masa utk malam tuh.. i meng OKEY kan je.sbnarnye terkejut gak ingt kan sumer tu tipu2 je.. rupenye mmg btol2..alamak time tu laa br nk tnye kwn2 baik, ajak tman.. nbaik drg leh tmankan..lps abes je exam.. ktorg pn bertolak la.. malangnye pulak, leh tersesat 2 kali la tu.. aisey..dh la mlm.. sesat mmg myakitkan ati btol laa. tmpat pn xtau dimanaa. pastu on d way ke sane tu, zul tu asyik call tnye ktmane dh?kt mn dh? president afcm pn ade tnye kt mane dh.. i pelik laa gk..sbb time tu ingtkan rmai org..so naper cam risau je i lmbat.. biarpn zul kt dinner 2 org je..tp sape nk caye kan.. mase zul call tu..i beriya2 laa ckp sorry sorry lambat.. zul lak ade laa gelak2. pastu i kt nape gelak, jgn la gelak.. tp time tu mmg xpk pn nape die gelak sbb i risau i dh lmbat sgt nie..nbaik la member yg drive.. klo i yg drive.. alamak kene saman la agaknye.. time berdebar2 nie i mmg bawak keta merbahaya sket. hahah.. bila dh smpai ke tmpat yg dituju.. zul (yg tgh bwk keta i ) tu pusing keta 2 kali.. pastu br la soh i turun.. i dh pelik dh time tu.. apesal lak dak nie pusing keta 2 kali tmpat sma br soh i turn.. pastu soh turun pegi jln dgn adam.. bile i tnye abes tu u xtrun? 2-3x gak kot tnye.. ntah nape.die xdgr ke or sngaja xnak jwb ke i pn xtau.. bile soalan xdijawab nie.. i pn dgn blur nye trus la kuar sbb i tau i dh lambat sgt. sbnarnye dlm ati nie nk tnye xleh bw kwn ke? tp since die xckp ape2 pn.so i segan nk tnye. bile tgk je adam .. trus berdebar2.. yeke nie adam.. xsngka laa dpt jupe lg.. dh la berdebar n blur sbb xtau pegi tu utk prog ape sbnar2nye.. i mean anjuran sape n sumenye laa. bile msuk je tmpat tu.. adam dithn la olh pyambut ttm tu sbb pakai selipar. adam jwb dgn berlagak gler. YA Allah.. time tu mmg tkejut gler. teruknye adam nie.. xbaik tol..adam nie konon nye sakit gigi.. asyik laa tgk gigi die gune hp.. yeye je i kate pegi la klinik.. hahaha.. pastu bile dh ddk kt meja yg disediakan tu.. Adam buat laa prangai yg bg i xberadab..spt kaki ats kerusi, mrh2 waitress sbb speaking, lap hidung gune napkin, dll.. time tu mmg i mengalami konflik dlm diri. hahahahahahaha. yela mcm2 pk.. rs nyesal gler minat adam. slpas nie rs nk kuar trus dr afcm.. pastu rs myesal minat artis..nyesal abeskan duit mngundi dll, nyesal xdgr ckp mak i. hahah.. yela my mom xsuke i minat artis2 nie cz dlm big family kedua2 blah, i sorg je minat hiburan n artis.. yg len lbh kpd blajar.. yg len blajar pn sume scholarship.. i je xdpt tajaan.. lg la die xbg sgt i mnt2 artis nie.. emm mcm2 la pk. rs nk blk je tp nk tgk je ape tjadi dlu. adam ngorat2 awek2 sblah meja ktorg nie.. dh la pndang awek org..bile bf die pndang blik.. die mrh nye bf org tu.. aisey.. mmg kecewa smcm je time tu.. adam adela ngorat2 gal sblah kiri nie.siap tkar2 nombor fon.. bergambar.. yg tkg amek gmbar nye i. adam dh laa ckp dgn suara yg kuat..mcm nk 1 kwsn tu dgr sore die je. time tu i nk tnye mane zul.. tp disbabkan prangai adam cmtu.. xjd nk tnnye.i tgk je la Adam cmtu. nk ckp pe pn xtau. tgh kecewa.. i xtau nk ckp ape.. so i mkn n minum je la. hahahahahaha.. mngunyah laa jln pnyelesaian spy kite xyah bckp. hahah.. pastu tetiba dtg la waitress nie.knon nye exgf adam..gedik nyeeeeeeeeeeeee..xtahan... i dh la anti pompuan gedikk nie. geli je dgr die ckp.. trs la i sms kwn i ' gedik tol la exgf adam nie'. dlm ati i nie. kalo ye pn nk cr gf, awat la cr yg gedik sgt nie. isk2. .hehehe. pastu adela borak sket2 dgn adam.. n then adela exgf adam tu dtg borak dgn adam.. dhla cam nk mhalau i dr tmpat tu.. pastu tnye ini itu lak.. eeeeeeeeeeeeiii geram nyee. tp ntah camne aritu thp kesabaran tnggi sket.. i sabar je la. lgpon sbb i tkejut sgt tgkk adam cmtu..smpai xterkata ape2.. kaku n tergamam.. sumer pn blur.. lps tu adam ade la mtk diri nk ke toilet konon nyee.. lpas je die gi.. gal sblah kiri i tnye, tu bf awak ke? i : bkn, i fans die jek.. die: agak2 nye die dh ade gf x? i:xtau..tnye la die die: mm..k. (dgn cara cam nk tackle adam laa knonnye).. pastu rsnye adela die tnye bnda len gk kot.xigt. lpas je die tnye.. couple sblah kanan lak tnye2.. i ktela i nie fans adam je.. nie utk celebrate bday fans die.. dll. pastu drg ckp la. 'u tgk x prangai adam tu.. artis len femes gk tp xdela berlagak cam die.. klo die jd bf u..u nk ke?' i jwb 'xnak'.. pastu i pn bersms2 la..tetiba je bf die tu duk dpn i..sbnarnye terkejut. nk tergelak pn ade.. sjak bile lak laa awek die nie gi tmpt len.. pastu borak2. die ade mtk no.hp.i kate xleh. utk kwn je. die: ala kan kite dh kwn..nie borak2 kan dh jd kwn.. i : xleh la nnti gf u marah.. die: xpe gf i sporting.. i: xleh la nnti die marah, i bg no.hp utk kwn rapat i jek. die: xpe sempat lagik nie. die xdtg lg ( ayt yg len xigt laa).. pastu adam pn dtg.. die pn ckp ALAMak.. then duk tmpat die blik.. pastu adam dtg marah2 die. apesal u duk tmpat i.. dll. pastu i yg xbersalah nie laa jd mangsa.. nk kate yee, nnti drg gadoh.. nk kate x, cam myokong laki tu lak.. isk2. xpasal2 laa kene marah dgn adam. KECEWA nyeee.. gf die pn dtg xlame lps tu.. lg laa gadoh2. siap baling air lg.. (Adam mnum dlu air tu sparuh,br blg..sbb die kt sian nk blg air kat org tu-adam ckp slpas kejadian)..time drg gadoh2, dlm ati i nie adela terkata 'cam tgk drama lak' ahhahaa..exgf adam tu asyik laaa ckp kt i 'kalo i jd u, dh lame i tggal kan tmpat nie' tp i buat bodo je..xtau nape i buat bodo je..hehe.. pastu die ulang2 laa ayt tu byk kali.. brulah i terpk gk nk blah ke xnak nie.. 'aku binggung'..tp duduk je lg kt situ.. pastu tgh2 tergamam tgk drg gado2.. (time tu i xde la risau sgt2). tp gal sblah kiri i nie la plak.. asyik laa ckp kt i 'awak,tlg laa..tarik laa adam tu..drg nk tumbuk2 tu..awak kan rapat dgn adam' pastu i kate x,i xrapat.... die: awak,tlg laa.. sy takot... cpat laa...tarik laa adam tu...nnti drg nk tumbuk2 laa..cpat la cpat la.. dr xgelabah..trus jd gelabah.. nie sume akak nie punye pasal laa.. i pn bgun.. kononnye nk reda kan la.. tp i yg kene marah. ntah mengapa.. i jd org yg sgt sabar time tu.. xmarah adam blik..klo artis len..awal2 lagik i dh sound.. eeeii tlg laaaaa i xsuke org berlagak nie. pi berambus laa. tp sbb adam.. sumenye jd laen.. hehehehhehe.. xterkata.. tterkejut sgt2. pastu lps dh reda sket tu.. i duduk la sbb adam soh.. pastu ntah camne dgn binggung2 nie i terkata la : 'adam klo xselesa, jom balik' .. time tu adam kate die mmg nk tergelak dh.. tp die thn jek.. hahahah.. aisey. maluuu nyeee.. xlame lpas tu, krew bang2 boom pn datang.. bw kek.. adam nyanyi lgu hepi besday.. dan yg len jugak.. n then drg sume kt anda terkene dlm bang2 boom... time tu hanye Tuhan yg tau betapa terkejutnye i.. Ya Allah.. mati2 i ingat adam camtu... rupenye sumer tu lakonan.. tanpa disedari menitik airmata Berharga niee..sumer org pon bersalaman ucap hepi besday..wakakakkakaka.. first time bday kene kejutan besar camnie.. dgn fav artist lak tu.. bestttttttttttt nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....terharu nyee.. tgh2 nanggis tu.. org snap gmbar, tarik2 soh pandang kamera.. waa maluuuuuuu nyeeee. time tu gak rase nk cekik2 je tok dalang nye. hahahahaha. mati2 org pcaya.. i terkejut sgt2 smpai kan byk hint pon i xperasan.. org lalu sblah meja ke..i xprasan.. couple tu sbnarnye mkn kuih muih je.. i nmpk n tdetik dlm ati 'drg nie dating kat otel,tp mkn kuih je ke' tp i xterpk laa nie 1 lakonan cz sgt2 terkejut tgk perangai adam.. spjg kejadian tu, i pandang adam je.. sbb i sgt terkejut.. tergamam.. mmg menjadi la bang2 boom nie.. buat laa kejutan len.. tp jgn laa buat kejutan fav artist i perangai camnie.. sedeyy sgt tauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!! TP TTP BESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT SGTTTTTTTTT.. I love U ADAM.... Smoga Adam trus berjaya dlm bidang yg diceburi n jgn sesekali berperangai xbermoral cam lakonan tu ek. hehheheheheh..

(Slpas kejadian, my dad n my brother sll perli i ayt ni ' adam,klo u xselesa,jomla blik' sambil gelakkan i ... hahahaha..malunyee.... )

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